I am Reminded

So up to this point, most of my blogging has had some sort of purpose to it; each blog I posted had an idea or theme to it. But right now, I feel like I need to blog but have no idea what to say . . .

It's been awhile since I have been on here, as camp and work and doctors appointments have taken the time I had and transformed my life into a whirlwind. I honestly don't know what to say. Like, I guess you might expect me to say what I "learned" at camp, or through my latest experiences as a Jesus Follower in this world the past few months. And I would love to convey that to you . . .if there were one or more things I could say that I actually "learned". But I don't know if I can truly say that God taught me this or that. Don't get me wrong; there have been many times that God taught me lessons in life. It's just that this summer, God has been continually REMINDING me of lessons he taught me before, and helping me to apply them to what happens in my everyday life.

1. God has reminded me that He is the Ultimate Healer. Before and after camp, I had to get medical tests done to figure out the reason for some pain I was having. I was ticked having to have all these tests done and then being given pain meds only to come back three exact weeks later to have it all done again. I didn't understand (and of course I still don't), but the second time around, I began thinking about how as much as the doctors do their job well, my God is my Healer. He ALONE can heal me. He heals me through doctors. He heals me through pain meds. Or whatever. And I just was worrying too much about stuff that God wants to take from me. He WANTS me to just throw my hands up in the air and say, "God, take my pain and worry from me! I can't do this on my own!". And being human, I sometimes definitely convince myself that I can heal myself. Yet, I cannot. God can.

2. God has reminded me that He is everywhere. Now, I totally knew that before camp. But somehow at camp, I got into the mindset that thinks God is working HERE or THERE. And we sometimes say, "God is definitely here". But that is because we SEE what He is doing, or we HEAR His voice, or we FEEL His presence. But what about when we don't? A better question: Should we ever NOT see, or hear, or feel Him? I think that if we open our eyes and our ears, we WILL know He is everywhere. But I definitely was not always aware at camp of what God was doing. And I don't know why. But Friday night, I needed a word from God. In fact, I guess I had needed this word from God the whole week, but was a little discouraged because Friday was the last day of camp, and I didn't see anything coming out of it for me (selfish I know, but after putting so much effort into the kids I was counseling, my heart wanted a word from God too). But I was not looking for it sadly enough. God had to grab one of His other children and speak His word through that person to me. He said, "Look my child, I am everywhere. Just because you do not think you see me working, I am working. And I want you to look for me. Everywhere. Because I. Am. There.

I'm not sure all of what I wrote up there. I felt like most of it didn't even make sense. But it sure did to me, as God reminded me of His awesome healing power and His incessant presence. In regards to applying all this in the future, I am not worried about my health anymore. I am totally trusting God to take care of me. It's hard for sure, but I pray, and I know that He is holding my hand and saying, "It'll all be alright". I am also looking for God in EVERYTHING. Because He is everywhere, I should be able to find Him working everywhere. And I DO see Him working. I just had to be reminded to open my eyes. : O

I'm really tired, and I have work tomorrow, so I'll say goodnight, but always remember - - - Jesus loves you!

Haha, and now I know the title of this blog. : )